The end of 2011,

Honestly the only new years I can ever remember clearly is that time my friend took me to a burning angel party in one of those claustrophobic NYC basement clubs. Mostly because of all the gratuitous…everything that went on, if I could see that many boobs every new year that would ensure the happy part. That and the months of scouring the internet hoping no one took a picture of my tits, tip for life do not get them tattooed unless you want everyone to know it’s you when they show up on the internet months later (they didn’t) however there was a picture of me talking to (drooling at) Johanna Angel. But that was NYE 2009…i think…

last year I spent it drunk with friends, as is usually the case, because thats what I do now that I’m an adult and can no longer do fun things like make out with everyone and get half neked with little to no consequences. 

This year it was fantastic and simple, I couldn’t have asked for a more perfect evening. Fancy dinner, a small party, waking up the next day feeling like death, eventually having breakfast at (around 2pm) a great little diner and seeing a movie. All made more amazing by the company I kept.

this past year I had some fun, partied and had some…adventures.  I came out of a fucked up sexually and mentally abusive relationship. Lived alone for the first time ever, which really enabled me to become better acquainted with myself. so there was alot of growth, and crying, but mostly growth.

Career wise this has been a pretty good year, I was only unemployed for about a month which sucked btw. I worked on a lot of commercials and a few print things, a documentary, a music video, a TV show and some theater. I got to dress some sets hold some cameras (just hold them) and drive some big trucks. I worked with some fantastic people and some not so fantastic people. Re- met this really great guy I knew from college on a movie set…it’s now been about 9 months since we started seeing each other and it’s already probably one of the most meaningful and healthy relationships I’ve ever been in.

lets see what else…

I have no new years resolutions because I feel like it’s just about the worst thing you can do to yourself, don’t set yourself up like that. change doesn’t just happen at will. we are creatures of habit, we adapt to things, it’s how we survive as a species. However this makes it extremely hard for us (unless you are one of those “special” super people) to change things. So I say fuck new years resolutions, if you want change go about it gradually, make sure it’s actually something you are willing to commit to.

so in 2012

I will continue to make an effort to be healthier in mind and body.

I will continue to strive to be the absolute best Nadia I can be in work and life.

I will continue to encorporate art into my life whenever possible.

I will continue to be creative.

I will continue to occasionally pick up and read those three books i’ve started.

I will continue to only pay attention to the news occasionally.

I will continue to have fun when I want to.

I will continue to spend as much time as I can with the people I care about.

I will continue to learn how to say no and be selfish when needed.

I will continue to be me and to always be learning more of what that means.

so that’s what I will continue to do in this new year… provided that whole world ending thing doesn’t happen.

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