comparing appearances, “you look like ‘X famous person’!”
in that way kinda makes me uneasy, it’s a compliment but it’s based on the idea that our standards of beauty are dictated by Hollywood’s standards of beauty, which in itself I find problematic because Hollywood’s standards of beauty have always been, arguably, dictated by questionable higher ups, mainly rich white men.
they sell us images and we buy them! that’s their business, hell that’s MY business!
I make money off of selling the general public standards of beauty and standards of living through images I help create….so I guess I shouldn’t complain about it, i guess next time someone compares me to ‘X famous person’ I should be especially thankful that they are still buying into what WE are selling.
worked on a crazy job with an amazing photographer this week. I can’t say much else because of “agreements” i made when i took the job. what I can say is It felt so amazing to do the kind of work I have been trying to do and get paid a substantial amount for it. I was given more responsibility and trusted to transform spaces to fit the needs of the client. It was a long and hard job but it definitely made me feel like I’m working towards the right goal for me. I really, truly, loved every fucking crazy minute of it!
So this week I effectively fucked up at both jobs by not realizing when my shift actually ended and getting written up and by fucking up my schedule and screwing myself out of a few weeks of work. But hey I had an amazing time in Indiana with my boyfriend so I guess the past week has been a trade off of good and bad. So it goes :b